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About Me Member Antagonist i-am-the-killerFemale/United States

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Flowered Grave....

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01.20.04like an ending that arrived too fast, its a begining you can't control. holding on so tight, maybe even too tightly at times, to a memory that's fading like pictures left out in the sun. but you find yourself alone with it time and time again, curling up and into it's warmth because its safe, its familiar, its everything you'd built your life around. clinging to a thought, an idea, a belief that you made out to be so great and perfect, a single space in time you wanted to last forver. you'll find that you do the same to the people who will come in and out of your life as days go on and on. putting them up on the same level when you know that, 01.20.04
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dead and buriedhere in the darkest of morning hours. before the sunlight has a chance to breach the horizon and take hostage the sky. reflecting through storm clouds that threaten every second to let go thier torrents, to cry thier sorrows upon my head. this wait, it kills, the supsence is getting to me by the hour an i can only hope that somehow our lives will be re-instated. our hearts be un-revoked. our eyes given a second chance to open once again in the dreary settings painted for us: everything in shades of grey and black, colors from a poor artists pallet. unimaginative and depleted of ideas i am broken of all feeling, run down without warning, lost dead and buried
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can you tell me again...

Wed Mar 23, 2005, 2:31 AM

"i don't love you anymore" is all i remember you telling me.... never have i felt so cold.

its been forever and a day since i was last here, since i've even thought about this place.

i mean that in a physical and emotional way.

am i in love? have i already fallen? i don't know what evokes this feeling inside of me. is it with him? or with her? decisions, decisions. i just can't make up my mind how i want to feel, or who i want to feel it about. do i take the easy route, and be with him casually and let it mean nothing; or do i make this harder on myself and be with her and use every ounce of strength i have to help her get better?

i sigh in disgrace in this mess of a bed i've made for myself.

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Current Residence: boston
Interests: music, photos, writing, people watching, making jokes when i'm uncomfortable
Favourite movie: the warriors, donnie darko, pulp fiction, resevoir dogs, cecil b demented, the kissing place
Favourite band or musician: elliot smith (RIP)
Favourite genre of music: verious things
Favourite poet or writer: sylvia plath/ f scott fitzgerald/ chuck pahluniuk/ edgar allen poe
Favourite style of art: black and white photography
Operating System: left foot, right foot
Skin of choice: think leather face
Favourite game: the ones i play with your head
Favourite gaming platform: n/a
Favourite cartoon character: launchpad from ducktales
Personal Quote: you name it, i hate it
Tools of the Trade: camera, paper, pen

Website: http://www.livejournal.com/users/suchnightmares
Email: use_me_holly@hotmail.com
AIM: poisonedobsesion

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~sooks May 18, 2004, 11:51:25 PM

Heey! :hi!: Thanks so much for the

on Maze. Its greatly appreciated. Hope you enjoy my gallery and that you'll have a wonderful gallery too!

~LxUxPxA May 18, 2004, 8:14:31 PM

Hi
Thanks for the +fav on the angel statue photo ! You have some cool statue photos on your gallery as well

~i-am-the-killer May 19, 2004, 7:19:00 PM

no problem. thanks for adding me to your watch list. i feel unloved cause only three people have added me. meh. its ok, i still have an appreciation and an interest in thier stuff.

~LxUxPxA May 19, 2004, 8:49:43 PM

sure no problem

I love your graveyard photos.. In fact, I gotta make some more trips real soon to some more cemetaries. There's one (or more, gotta find out about em) in boston that look interesting, and some others in surrounding towns. I can't wait to see more of your stuff !

~catastrophe-waitress May 13, 2004, 7:21:31 AM

I really like your gallery. Keep up the good work.

~i-am-the-killer May 14, 2004, 7:42:39 PM

thanks. i'm trying.

~CornMuffin May 12, 2004, 12:27:03 PM

Hey hunni....
do you not know how to use this site or are you just ignoring me????

i dunno if you noticed, but you are the sole subject of my first series.. lots of love there....
ill get the rest of your pictures up tomorrow....

love you

--
...All around me are familiar faces,
Worn out places, worn out faces,
Bright and early for the daily races,
Going no where, going no where...

~CornMuffin May 6, 2004, 3:49:00 AM

Add some stuff dammit! dont judge my gallery, it sucks right now..... but next week it wont! ok, love you....

hmmm.......yesterday was interesting......... and fun.....

--
...All around me are familiar faces,
Worn out places, worn out faces,
Bright and early for the daily races,
Going no where, going no where...